mishaay

2009-12-16T20:44:00.001+10:00

2009-11-27T20:34:00.001+10:00

where are the stars tonight?

2009-11-18T22:11:00.009+10:00

come to think about it. it was a slightly abusive relationship wasn't it, in some sense. it was, it takes to leave one to know that it was one. why am i still hurting from the mess he created in my life, suffering the consequences of his actions no? honestly, despite the moments of pain, i think i am happy and doing very well with myself. Sometimes, i do miss him still, i guess? I don't know. Because I don't.

I wished he saw what was brewing beneath the surface than focus on the superficiality of everything that happened.

x. i adore russell. i really want a kid now.

x. i am starting to miss brisbane.

x. such innocence to behold with his eyes shut sleeping.

x. i have 5 stacks of books i don't have time to finish reading

x. queen says: "i need to visit alba before i leave, okay king?"

I watched THIS IS IT. So spectacular, out of this world, mind blowing.

michael's mind is really amazing. This guy really have overwhelming emotions inside of him, he must really feel alot, it must've been such a struggle.

2009-11-26T08:41:00.001+10:00

i overcame my fear, phobia.

4km, not overcame my fear, it's still there.

but i completed it whatever it is i told myself i had to.

don't let the fear disable me from finishing the course.

2009-11-22T18:06:00.002+10:00

today i

x. church/lunch/window shopping

x. vacuumed the house

x. walked the dog, cleaned his poo & urine

x. top up this food/water tray

x. help cook dinner

sums up my life now (:

yesterday: i watched the guys play basketball & sunnybanks for dinner, actually i just sat and talked to E the whole time, didn't really catch anything at all. :x i can't watch a match for nuts, my super short attention span, i don't think i have ever finished watching a match proper before.

awesomepossum

i have nothing to blog about, some random notes.

can you get it? i doubt it!

2009-11-20T18:59:00.003+10:00

m: you should be more aware of your actions,
than be self-conscious of the reactions to the consequences.

2009-11-20T14:44:00.004+10:00

The person who observes, sees, understand cares enough to comprehend what is happening also senses & feel those emotions, probably hurts the most as well.

That's quite a struggle ain't it because no one else can understand that but that person. And wonder if there would be anyone special enough to understand that.

won't be shortchanged

2009-11-18T22:31:00.004+10:00

Mark 10:31

"But many who are first will be last, and the last first."

Mark 9:35

"If anyone wants to be first, he must be the very last, and the servant of all."

for most, it might have brought more comfort but for me more pain. it's as if i know life won't go easy on me but it will be very good, its irony but it makes perfect sense to me.

Distance is 6158 kilometers or 3827 miles or 3325 nautical miles

2009-11-18T01:26:00.002+10:00

despite how far apart we are.

look up, it's the same side of the moon we see.

those stars, don't change.

i know you are there.

you exist.

you are missed.

awesomepossum

2009-11-18T01:09:00.004+10:00

do you think about what happens after death?

that's death is not the end but just the very beginning.

can you take the risk of not knowing, can you?

"I have felt the wind blow,
Whispering your name
I have seen your tears fall,
When I watch the rain.

How could I say there is no God?
When all around creation calls!!
A singing bird, a mighty tree,
The vast expanse of open sea

Gazing at a bird in flight,
Soaring through the air.
Lying down beneath the stars,
I feel your presence there.
I love to stand at ocean shore
And feel the thundering breakers roar,
To walk through golden fields of grain
With endless bloom horizons fray.
Listening to a river run,
Watering the Earth.
Fragrance of a rose in bloom,
A newborns cry at birth."
-creation calls (Brian Doerksen)

my days have been busy with:

4. Books

1. Originality

9. Random Reads

8. Lie to me

2. Cooking, in the process of being an iron chef here please.

I learnt muahchee, stewed chicken, oyster veggies, wanton noodles, preserved vegs mixed fried eggs so far.

7. ALOTALOT OF RUSSELL, he really tires me out. EMO DEFIANT BOY. But he is still so so cute especially when he sleeps next to me at night on his soft pillow, but he always chooses to lie on the floor. (please know that russell is a dog!)

3. Goldcoast!

5. I SHOPPED TODAY, like finally. retail therapy.

3. ALOT OF SONGS singalong myself sessions AND BEDROOM loving within my four walls.

4. missing a whole lot of people out there

10. okay, know what i decided i want a blackberry BOLD.

enjoy some pictures, gives a soothing effect.

walking in the rain

2009-11-16T09:51:00.003+10:00

i am enjoying life, the little moments.
so sit back relax and love the ride.

whoa awesome, i just got mail.
It's beautiful.
I am so much busier than when I was studying for exams.
So many things i want to read. i want i want i want.
the irony in that.

the pictures that caught my eye in the last one minute when I started blogging to when i ended blogging this entry.

2009-11-15T15:53:00.000+10:00

never ever.

not enough to come close to mess me up again.

never ever.

it's not worth it.

2009-11-14T18:37:00.000+10:00

what happened last night?

11 November 2009

2009-11-11T11:57:00.000+10:00

"today is 11/11/11

(2+0+0+9=11)"

so do something cool!

so STUDY!

no choice.

2009-11-11T01:58:00.001+10:00

2009-11-10T21:25:00.000+10:00

"do not mistake realism for pessimism."

-m

Little update

2009-11-09T23:16:00.003+10:00

Feeling: Awesomely Amazing

Loving: Life

Reading: Opportunities in Asia

Wanting: to read

Watching: Numbers

Dreaming: of getting back on my feet

Having: Honey Water

Waiting: For Christmas

What about you?

very strange

2009-11-10T13:08:00.001+10:00

strange
so very strange

the only permanent thing is change

2009-11-09T23:05:00.001+10:00

2009-11-09T17:47:00.000+10:00

ZOOOOOMG!

2009-11-09T17:12:00.001+10:00

"no such thing as coincidences."
so it seems.

2009-11-09T14:39:00.001+10:00

1 down. 1 more(:

2009-11-09T13:48:00.004+10:00

got this off A's blog (:

I am good for you, say yes.

it's not a choice.

hi A&A&L everyone else

when you worry. don't.

2009-11-08T19:59:00.001+10:00

sometimes i think i should start worrying over the fact that i don't worry at all.

Philippians 4
6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

8 Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy - think about such things.

9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen i me - put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

2009-11-08T12:47:00.001+10:00

FREE HUGS

everyone can do with a hug any day

it might just make someone's day alot better